Growing Pains

Show me that smile again-

(Show me that smile)

Don’t waste another minute on your cryin’.

We're nowhere near the end (nowhere near)

The best is ready to begin.

The weekend retreat was needed and a lot of unresolved issues came to the light. The relationship I share with Parker is coming to a crossroads. It's been one year, believe it or not. The hot tub, the pool table, and the bedroom all hold hot memories, but despite the fun, the reality is that our relationship is experiencing growing pains, and they defiantly hurt.

A relationship is hard. For me, this is my fourth relationship; for Parker, it is his first. We are both very stubborn in what we want. He wants my time and I want his understanding. I work a lot and right now, there is nothing that can be done to avoid it and he constantly wants my undivided time and attention. I have friends and I feel so guilty when I neglect them. I cannot remember the last time I spent quality time with Double Dees. But I also feel guilty when I am not with Parker when he wants me.

We are taking our journey together step by step and learning and growing in our love. Some days are long, some nights are even longer (and not in a good way), but through it, we are together, hand in hand.