Wednesday, November 14, 2007

I'll shout it from the Smokey Mountain Tops... I'm in love with Parker!


My birthday party was a lot of fun. I hope my guests thought it was a classy event that added something to the social scene of the city I love so dearly. Had it not been for Cousin Thomas and Cousin Mallory, Aaron and Chris, and Parker, the party would not have happened.

As soon as the party ended, the whirlwind that is my life changed courses. For the past three years, I have worked as an organizer for an event called Fire in the Smokies (falltacular.com). The annual event was held this past weekend. Specifically, I was over ice-breakers and workshops.

Now that the event is over, I can honestly say that Fire in the Smokies was an amazing experience. If any reader went or heard about this event, please tell me what you thought.

Held in the smoky mountains of Pigeon Forge, Tennessee, the event afforded me an opportunity to reflect on m life. I came to realize that my life is good, but it is not great. I have a lot of work to do to make my life what I want it be. Finances, stability, and upward mobility are paramount concerns. My physical, mental, and spiritual well-being are also areas for improvement. While all of the aforementioned are topics for future blogs, I decided that I had a more immediate issue to address.

In the mountains, I realized that it was time to confront this situation in my life that is increasing in its gravity. I realized it was time to address where our relationship was headed.

Parker is not what I wanted in my life. I never imagined that I would start a relationship with someone eight years my junior.

But it has been eight months and I realize that my feelings for him have grown immensely. I’m in love and realizing this hurts.

The party was a turning point for me in how I felt for Parker. He introduced himself to numerous strangers as “Corey’s boyfriend” and I thought that was cute. After the party, he lay in my arms and told me he loved me and wanted to be with me. He opened this door to my heart and forced me to accept how I felt.

I took the time I needed in the mountains to reflect on my feelings and realized that if we were going to continue to be together, we needed to commit. Upon returning home, I asked him what he wanted to do about the relationship we have and he said he wanted to be with me and that he wanted to make this work.

I have a lot of apprehension about this and what it entails.

Day by day and step by step, if the lord is willing and the creek don’t rise, we, Parker and me, can make this work.

7 comments:

So Fa Real said...

Aw, I'm not a jealous dude, but damnit, I'm jealous. But I'm also extremely elated for your relationship, for we all know how scarce it is to find love amongst us. I pray success in multitudes for you and your love! : D

i am. said...

no doubt. that's def. what's good.

and you took me back home with that 'if the creek don't rise'

hahaha

glad i found your blog.

C. Baptiste-Williams said...

interesting

bLaQ~n~MiLD said...

Nice yo. Relationships are work but as you've stated, day by day, step by step. Wish you much success!

~Damnit!

That Dude Right There said...

Well since it won't rain here in Atlanta, you don't have to worry about the creek rising!LOL

Good luck to you and Parker.

D-Place said...

How wonderful. Don't worry about the age thing if Parker makes you happy. Enjoy the moments that you have together.

ZDK said...

Make sure you give Parker your attention and time.He's young and maybe cute so he can move on at any time. But if u show him how much you value him; you wont have to worry